RG tagged me with the “Gimme 5” meme a couple weeks ago. I told him I would get around to it, and I finally have. I had a hard time coming up with five unknowns about myself. Seriously. At least five unknown things that I actually would make public. But I did.
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Here’s all five of my inches for you:
1. I have issues with crowds.
Serious issues. And by crowds I mean more than two people. Which makes it extremely difficult mentally for me to attend functions the Husbear enjoys attending—events like Southern Decadence, bear parties, dance clubs, the mall. But I somehow manage. Thanks to massive quantities of alcohol. My liver will probably hate me for it though.
2. I have a strange desire to want to karaoke.
This desire is equally proportional to how much I don’t like how my voice sounds. This might also explain why I will sing only in the car and only when I am by myself and only when the stereo is louder than my voice. Think Yoko Ono on helium. There.
3. I bottle up my emotions.
It’s easier than dealing with them. And who knows, they might be a great vintage one day. I’m not sure where I obtained this “talent” from but I’m sure religion probably had something to do with it. And the man I call my father. I’m sure he’s to thank as well.
4. I have had a lot less “social experiences” than most people think.
I was a late bloomer for pretty much everything: kissing, alcohol, sex, drugs, dancing, partying. I didn’t start to experience some of them until I was in my mid-twenties. Some things I still haven’t experienced. After reading some of you bloggers, there’s a LOT of things I haven’t experienced.
5. I feel awkward socially.
This probably goes hand-in-hand with number 4 above. I never feel comfortable in social situations. I think that’s also why I gravitate towards people who are extremely social. Some sort of mental, symbiotic balance for me. They probably think I’m a stalker.
Well, that was probably a lot more than you want to know about me. And probably a lot more than I should have revealed about myself.
If bloggers want to self-medicate, er, make that self-tag, they’re more than welcome to. I know everything we do is a little “unknown” from time to time.
Until next time...
No matter how strong #2 is… don’t. Trust me. You’re right about your voice. I mean I’ve never heard *your* voice, per se. But I was in the same position as you when I belted out “Delilah” by Tom Jones in a Quebec bar. They didn’t know much English, but they certainly knew “tone deaf”
You’re the only one to follow through on my tag. So, I’m not going to say anything snarky. Thank you.
I am so with you on #5. I’m terrible in social situations, tending to hang out on the fringes or just stand by and listen to what’s going on. I would much rather be off doing something by myself or with my partner, just us.
I can relate to # 1 and 5. I don’t do groups well at all, unless it is a very controlled situation. For instance, I can drive a bus full of people. As the bus driver I am somewhat separate from the group, you know? Or as Greg says, on the fringes. As an observer. I do not want to be the center of attention, please! And right now I can’t even handle the group of people living in my house. My own family is overwhelming me. How sad is that?
Many bloggers I read seem to share this trait. We like the blog format because we can interact with people while being alone. It’s quite nice, really! 🙂
There is nothing wrong with wanting to Karaoke (Yes–that’s Karaoke with a cap K). Karaoke is all about the performance, not how well you sing but if you always feel socially awkward you may as well not do it.
I can totally relate with how you feel. I do not do well in social situations at all. If you looked in the dictionary under wallflower you would find me. Sometimes people tend to think I am being stand offish, but deep inside I really am wishing they would make the first move and say something. If you ever figure out a way to open up more let me know. Love the blog.
I have social anxiety as well, unless I am on a stage in-front of all of the crowd then I am totally cool, strange huh….
I bottle up my emotions too. Then when someone finally gets me to erupt, I will lay a prolonged, tedious account of that person’s previous “assualts” against me. “After reading some of you bloggers, there’s a LOT of things I haven’t experienced.” Luckily, I think a lot of people see this and then it’s reassuring that we are not alone.
nice list. i love the pics, and the explanations – especially the awkward years graphic.
Belated comments, but I really like your answers. I can relate to most of them, even though I’m a pretty gregarious bastard. Crowds make me crazy – I feel claustrophobic. Your explanation of karaoke is exactly my sentiment… but I personally think I’m on the scale of sounding like a muppet. Let me tell you, I’d be MORE mortified of someone walking in on me singing versus masturbating.
Whoa, I share those 5 things you mentioned too..